Tarot and Spiritual Coach
Life may not turn out as we hoped but when we see the gift that exists in all that we experience, we create more choice in our lives. Life does not have to be perfect to be wonderful.
My life experiences, from a difficult childhood, 2 unsuccessful and turbulent marriages and a corporate career which I loathed and was tainted with soul destroying and bullying incidents, had me believing it was all my fault, I must be difficult or unstable to keep attracting all this bad luck.
Anyone who knew me during those difficult times had no idea how low I felt, because i did the classic thing of turning up each and every day with a big smile on my face, doing everything I could to help others, whilst pretending everything was fine when I actually felt like s**t inside and I was just waiting for the next verbal or physical punch.
It took many years of soul searching, beating myself up and loneliness until finally I had one of those “ah ha” moments. It was during my lowest point in my corporate career, I was sitting on my kitchen floor, unable to get up, walk or talk to anyone, feeling very alone, scared and stressed and not knowing how to deal with a difficult situation, when something inside me snapped and I thought - enough is enough, I am not going to allow anyone to treat me like this anymore and more importantly, I am not going to let others suffer like this either, there must be a better way.
I embarked on a spiritual journey of understanding myself and others, it is a continuous journey of self discovery that has changed my life beyond all recognition.
I found the ‘me’ that had always been there, a true self that is within all of us once we know where to look. I learnt to laugh, to cry, to trust, to be free. I learnt to forgive, both others and myself. I found I could let go of the past, and of all the relentless self-sabotaging thoughts and behaviours I once had. Problem was no-one had taught me that I held the key to my own personal freedom all the time.
I love this quote by Eckhart Tolle, it’s so true “Get the inside right and the outside will fall into place”. My life is now very different, not because the people, places or circumstance are different, but because I am different.
Do you wish your life could different? Then let me share the gift of insight with you.